I had written
this back in December for someone I had been in love with for 3 long
years before I even dated him. You want to know where we are today? You
want to know how my love was returned? A GOODBYE, BUT WAIT, NO,
GOODBYE, NO CHOICE!!!!! I have not talked to the man that I loved and
nearly had a child with in over a month and that is what I recived by
putting my heart on the line. Pain almost to the point of dealth.I say
this not to discourage loving bc believe me when I loved Robert and
really belived he loved me back it is a feeling I would not trade for
the world. I say this to urge you to use caution when it comes to
matters if the heart bc real, unconditional love is not something to
mess with. Robert if you are reading this I still care for you very
very much but you did really hurt me!!! I have some questions I would
like anwered so I may heal some more. But I want you to know I am
finally putting me first I am finally doing what I want and trying to
be who I want to be. And most important;y I am learning to love me. I
hope you are well and that you found work. I continue to pray for a
good life for you.
To be in
Love... Love seems to meake the world go round. To me love has always
been a big fat lie, a betrayal, fake... but now to me what is love...
Love is ~when you miss them the second they turn to walk away ~to give your life in order to give them anything they would dream of ~to sacrifice the things you love in order to learn about what they love ~to give of all your herat, soul, mind, body, and spirit just on the hope you'll have another day with them ~to come back when things get hard and it hurts to look into their eyes ~to love beyond any pain or hurt ~to wait around for hours and days just for one lookm into their eyes ~to dream of a forever even if it means waiting a lifetime ~to
give all of yourslef for one soul purpose... for them to know they are
worth it and that your love is not an emotion it will remain through
the good and the bad!!!! To love them past forever... This is
where my heart is at I spend each day awaiting the moment he will feel
the same!!!!.... Forver with you wouldn't be long enough | 
